120 Pallet

Here it is! [For Aaliyah] I finally took pics and uploaded some swatches of my 120 pallet. Sorry but my digital camera is CRAP, so the pigments of the swatches don't look that good. Generally I'm impressed. The pigments are great. Most of the colors show up vibrantly on my skin tone (MAC NC50). And there are LOTS of colors to choose from....120..DUH! The price for this, in my opinion was cheap. around $25 Canadian off of eBay. I didn't mind spending close to $30 because normally one eye shadow is like $3 for a drug store brand and $15 for a MAC. These are equally pigmented as MAC products. Over all I think it's worth it for a general pallet.

Pros:
- Affordable
- 120 different colors to choose from (there are two blacks, but that can be a good thing)
- Each pot is about the size of a dime
- Shimmer and matte
- Two stacks
- Plastic cover
- Heavily pigments
- Easy to blend
- Lasts longs/ doesn't fade
- Don't necessarily need a base/primer
- Easy to fix broken pots

Cons:
- Breaks easily
- Had a few broken pots from the delivery process
- Pallet pots can messy
- Case is glossy, finger prints show up
- Case isn't very sturdy
- Not something you can fit in your purse. Can't separate the colors. Either take it as a whole or don't take it at all!
- Can only purchase online.



Here are some pictures of the pallet



Some swatches (NC50 Skin Tone, no base/primer)

21st Century Breakdown

The 8th Green Day album 21st Century Breakdown was released on May 15th, 2009, and I haven't stopped listening to it since!

That's the thing about Green Day, Billie, Tre and Mike NEVER fail to impress me. Can I define Punk Rock? Maybe not, but I'm pretty positive Green Day is somewhere in the description! If not, then they should be!

Tracks:

Act 1 - Heroes and Cons

1. “21st Century Breakdown”
2. “Know Your Enemy” [First Released Single]
3. “¡Viva La Gloria!”
4. “Before the Lobotomy”
5. “Christian’s Inferno”
6. “Last Night on Earth”

Act 2 - Charlatans and Saints

7. “March of the Dogs”
8. “East Jesus Nowhere”
9. “Peacemaker”
10. “Last of the American Girls”
11. “¿Viva La Gloria?”
12. “Restless Heart Syndrome”

Act 3 - Horseshoes and Handgrenades

13. “Horseshoes and Handgrenades”
14. “Drama Queen”
15. “Static Age”
16. “21 Guns”
17. “American Eulogy”
18. “See the Light”

As you can see, the track listening has been organized into three "acts", which I personally find brilliant and creative. I believe the total time run on the CD is approximately 65-70 minutes, which is very decent. There isn't so much as an obvious planned story line, but in an MTV interview Billie Joe explained that a story was not their intention. Rather, the plot of the two characters (as seen on the cover of the album) came after the songs were produced.

To be honest, I was worried. American Idiot was (excuse my language) a fucking master-minded work of brilliant art! From instrumentals, to the story line, to Billie Joe's soothing voice. It was everything I loved about music. Because of this, part of me wondered if this new album compared. I was not disappointed. Not only is 21st AMAZING, but it is not over powering Idiot, yet its not below. It's the perfect fit in Green Day's musical history.

Although I think all the tracks are super, a few stand out. Some of my favs: Know your enemy, 21 Guns, and Static.

Now I know people will argue that this is far from Green Day's first few albums. People grow! Things change! GD's been in this business since 1990! That's a long time! New experiences, changes to our world, especially political changes and new circumstances have arose. GD's music finds ways to adapt to that! I personally think this is another epic album. Maybe it's not for everyone, but even if you're not a GD fan, at least check out the lyrics! There are some pretty touching lines!!

Here's a widget with the tracks *Hoping it works*

21st Century Breakdown - Green...

Same-Sex Marriages: My Stance

First of all, for any of you who were actually expecting any intelligence from the Miss U.S.A pageant… SHAME ON YOU!!!

Anyways, moving onto the issue. I won’t bother repeating the whole controversy, because if you haven’t been living under a rock, then you’d know it already.

Gay marriages.

I support them! I don’t have a problem with the gays/lesbians/bisexuals. However, growing up in our society and being a kid who went to public school amongst other young idiots, I can see how people have a problem with it.

Growing up, “you’re so gay” has always been a common insult. In my surroundings, being gay was always seen as something wrong or degrading. It was something that you shouldn’t be or shouldn’t want to be.

Thankfully I grew up and learned that I can question things like this. I’m an atheist, I don’t believe in God or religion. So why should the law be focused around something that over religious “Christian” freaks claim is key in the bible? I’m not Christian. Isn’t the law meant to protect all of us?

I guess for me, my turn around happened when I was asked “well why shouldn’t gays be allowed to get married?” I couldn’t answer it. Why shouldn’t two people who love each other be allowed to get married? If their both consenting adults, then they should have the same rights as a straight couple. Who the hell am I to say someone should have their rights taken away from them?

I don’t believe the Government the right to go behind bedroom doors. I don’t think there should be a ban on gay marriages.

If the government and “concerned” citizens want to focus on bedroom issues, then I think they should pay more attention to the children and families who go to bed cold and hungry because they can’t afford the necessary living conditions.

Gay marriages are legal in Ontario. Canada in general has been accepting of this. However in Ontario alone, 1 of every 6 child is living below the poverty line. I’m sure these numbers are similar or worse in other provinces and states. So why focus so much attention on preventing people from getting married? They’re not hurting anyone! The people who are hurting…they’re hurting because of the economy. The gays are not to blame for that. So leave them alone, and focus on fixing the lives of the citizens who need assistance.

How many more parents need to walk in on their child hanging from their closet? Or get a call from the police saying their child has been murdered? Why? Because their kid is gay? Being gay isn’t what killed them. It’s the ignorance that we pass on that got them killed.

Instead of parents holding up signs protesting against gay marriages, because they’re scared their child is going to become corrupted, they should protest outside their damn school to have more resources for bullying. They should protest for better education. I know we can’t always watch over kids and control what they say or think. But I think more effort can be put into preventing a child from taking their own life. A child should not be murdered by their peers because they’re different.

In all honesty, I see this as another excuse for poor parenting skills. If you want to walk around high and all mighty as a “faithful Christian”, then go ahead. Just don’t destroy human rights.

I disagree with how Miss California answered her question. I believe that Perez Hilton brought up a good point; Miss USA is suppose to represent all Americans, and not alienate anyone. You can still have your opinion while being politically correct.

But again, I was not expecting any intelligence from a pageant.

Some interesting reads:

http://www.psr.edu/news/former-miss-california-defends-same-sex-marriage [Former Miss California contestant's view on same-sex marriage. Provides a better insight to the bible]

http://www.campaign2000.ca/rc/pdf/OntarioReportCard2006.pdf [2006 Ontario report discussing child proverty]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcMEL3_YsVI [Ellen Degeneres on the Lawrence King tragedy]

http://www.ajc.com/metro/content/metro/dekalb/stories/2009/04/21/boy_suicide_bullying_decatur.html?cxntlid=homepage_tab_newstab

Stop over feeding your kids and leave the cookie monster alone.

Perhaps I'm late on the shenanigans that angry, emotionally unstable mothers have been spewing with the media, but like my period, it's better late than never. Let's face it, at one point or another we've all blamed the media once for something like anorexia, low-self esteem, "why isn't my body like Shakira's" blah blah blah blah. The media is Satan for young girls and boys every where isn't it?

But what about those of us who've never stuck our finger down our throat? Our cut pictures of our head out and stuck them onto Paris Hiltons body. I can't speak for all, but I'm pretty sure it has something to do with how you're raised. Smart parents teach you not to buy into this crap. Smart parents realize that the last thing we need on this Earth are clones of Miley Cyrus and Britney Spears.

But then there are the parents who are just too lazy to be parental. Their there ones that can't stand their bitchy ass whiny kid crying and give in by buying him a big mac combo. Or the ones who don't take the time so sit down and talk about the birds and the bees....then they find out their 13 year old daughter is knocked up.

I would love nothing more than to sit here and rant about the future strippers of tomorrow, but I'm going to stick to childhood obesity.

They let their child live on a diet of nothing but junk food consisting of starch, sugar, fast food and pop. Then they some how manage to find the audacity to blame the cookie monster for their kid being a total fat ass. The cookie monster can eat as much broccoli as his little puppet mouth can handle, but at the end of the day, the damn child is still going to know the cookie tastes better.

Point: He's a puppet.

Anyways. Most parents tend to pack their fridge with endless amount of artery killing crap. They do this because the cookie monster goes grocery shopping with them, holds a gun to their head, and then forces them to buy the jumbo pack of Oreo's.

For your sake, I hope you caught onto the sarcasm.

Here's an idea, they should tell their kids how to get to sesame street, then make them WALK there. Television can only do so much for you. Yes, it can alter their programming to encourage healthy eating and living, but until further technological advancements take place, they won't be able to spoon feed kids through the screen.

But hey, blaming a furry blue monster for cutting their child's live short by a few decades sounds a lot better than blaming themselves right?


I'm unemployed and trying to score a job on the Dr. Phil show. Give me a break.

It took me a while..

But I think I'm finally able to put him into words. A lot of you, most of you....hell...all of you who I've talked about this told me I wasn't in love. It was just infatuation. In a way, you were right. It was infatuation rather than falling in love. However, at one point I was in love.

Before you criticize me and lecture me about my own feelings. Hear me out.

Him. His physically being. Him sitting here. His looks, his smile and his scent. That's where I'm guilty of being infatuated. He gave me those warm bubbly feelings and he made me smile and do those stupid little things like walk into doors (literally). And I liked that feeling.

But I wasn't in love with him. I was in love with the idea of being in love with him. I know that doesn't make much sense to most of you, but it makes perfect sense to me.

All of you told me that he was no good for me. That I could do better, and that I deserve better. And I thought, 'who the hell are all of you to judge a guy you don't even know'? I wanted all of you too see what I saw in him. I wanted you to see what I was in love with.

The problem with that was everything I was in love with...was make believe. I had no idea who he was or who he is now. I was looking so hard to find someone that I could trust and look up too and be all the things that I needed and wanted, that somewhere in my mind I was able to convince myself that he was all that. I thought he was good for me, I thought that he was what I deserved. He wasn't. Everything I saw in him were just the illusions of my imaginations and my need of something to belong to me.

When I finally decided to let him go, all I wanted to do was to write it out. I wanted to put him into words on a piece of paper. I couldn't, and I didn't know why. I was so frustrated because I had all these feelings towards him, yet I couldn't write them down.

Even now there are moments when I feel as though I still have something for him, and it's hard to remind myself that he's not the person I wanted him to be. I still feel anger and bitterness towards him, yet sometimes all I want is to belong to his world...which in time I hope will go away. Maybe I do have some reasons to think he's a jerk. But I don't have any reasons to hate him. After all, I was just using him to fill a gap in my own life. I used him because I felt I needed a replacement for those who I've lost in my life that meant a lot to me. I made him out to be my savior, when in reality, he had no clue what was going on. Maybe there are things in his life that I want. I don't know yet, but I have time to figure it out.

My emotions are still running wild at times. I've learned to move on from friendships that I've lost, because some how I've learned that if someone ever really cared about you, they will always care about you, and although you may not talk to them or see them or consider them a friend, they'll still be there for you. I think I know that because so much time has gone by, things were left unsaid, and will probably never be said. He may not be my friend anymore, but I still care about him, and if he needs me, I there. Vice-versa.

I've fallen down and I've dealt with a lot of pain. For the first time in a long time, I think I'm finally able to stand up. And at least I can say I stood on my own.

“Every day you may make progress. Every step may be fruitful. Yet there will stretch out before you an ever-lengthening, ever-ascending, ever-improving path. You know you will never get to the end of the journey. But this, so far from discouraging, only adds to the joy and glory of the climb.” Winston Churchill

Is there anything bigger than Octo-moms Vagina?

I'm not sure, but I'm guessing it could be the mouth of Kanye West.

When is he ever not talking? Or as I like to see it; When is he ever not trying to suck his own dick? I get it, this man is a musical genius.

Actually, no, I don't get it. 5 years of my life were devoted strictly to the Backstreet Boys, so I'm not qualified to spot out a musical genius. But according to my surrounding public, the man is a genius.

Well according to Kanye, not only is he a musical genius, but he's the best that there is...the very definition of greatness, he is also the vessel for God.

He said:
“God chose me. He made a path for me. I am God’s vessel...But my greatest pain in life is that I will never be able to see myself perform live" (http://news.softpedia.com/news/I-Want-to-See-Myself-Perform-Live-Kanye-West-Says-106010.shtml).

Thankfully I sold my soul to the devil for a 9th season of Smallville and I'm going to hell. Because there is no way I'd be able to put up with him and his mohawk for all eternity in heaven.

Don't get me wrong, I found the whole thing about "George Bush does not like black people" to be very amusing and witty of him. But he probably should have just stopped there. At this point I think he's just an older Jonas Brother with less hair and nothing brilliant to talk about.

I heard 50 cent is moulding a vibrator out of his penis. He should stick a few of them in Kanye's mouth, maybe that will help to solve this problem, or at least keep him busy so that we can all achieve some temporary peace. Kanye, I would love to let you be great. You know? Just let you be great. But that would require you keeping your mouth shut when your not "dropping lines" or what ever the hell they call rapping nowadays.

As for Nadya Suleman, I think think they should stick Miley Cyrus and the cast of High School Musical up her pussy. There's room and it will better society.

OLP- Thief

OUR LADY PEACE - Thief

I don't want to understand this horror
There's a weight in your eyes
I can't admit
Everybody ends up here in bottles
But the name tag's the last thing you wanted

As the world explodes
We fall out of it
And we can't let go
Because this will not go away
There's a house built out in space

I can't see that thief
That lives inside of your head
But I can be some courage at
The side of you bed
I don't know what's happening
And I can't pretend
But I can be your, be your

Someone help us understand
Who ordered this disgusting
Arrangement, time and the end
I don't want to hear who walked
On water, because the hallways are empty
And the clocks tick

As the world implodes
We fall into it
And we can't go home
Because this will not go away
There's a house built out in space

I can't see that thief
That lives inside of your head
But I can be some courage at
The side of you bed
I don't know what's happening
And I can't pretend

It's a long, long get away
It's a long, long get away
Make it home again
Make it home again
It's a long, long get away
It's a long, long get away

I can't see that thief
That lives inside of your head
But I can be some courage at
The side of you bed
I don't know what's happening
And I can't pretend
But I can be your, be your



NOT the official video. fan made =( Youtube didn't have the embedded code for the real video.

For my lovely optimists:

I have no right, absolutely no right to shatter the dreams and hopes of those passionate young ones of our generation. No right at all! But I regret to inform you that most of you have fallen for the hype of what turns out to be another popularity scam. If you're scratching your head wondering what I could possibly be bitching about this time, let me reveal! OBAMA. Yes! His name has graced the world. America's 44th president is a black man. The white house, which was built by African American slaves, now has a black family living in it. Don't get me wrong, we've witnessed a beautiful thing. We've witnessed a great mark in history; an amazing burst of change. For some, we can even gain belief in the saying "you can be what ever you want to be".

So what do I find wrong? The fact that we're giving this man the expectations of a God. He is not a good, he is only man. Hope vs. Reality. I was watching the Dr. Phil show where debates from the liberal and conservative side has been brought up. What I would like to say is this: I do believe that Obama has positive changes in mind. However, changes as such need time. And, we cannot possible expect him to bring us all to saviour. Before, during and after his term as President, there will be homeless people, there will be crime and there will be problems difficult to solve. I don't think most of you understand that. How do we really know this man will solve our problems? You cannot give someone more power than they have. Power, leads to destruction.

Why did so many young people vote for Obama? Was it because they actually listened to his speeches? Was it because they actually knew what he was standing for? Or was it because they made sense of his plans for America?

Or was it because P. Diddy and Madonna walked around in t-shirts saying "Barack the vote"?

Obama had A LOT of support from the rich and famous. But was it because they actually believed, or was it a publicity stunt to get themselves back into the newspapers and magazines and to cash in on the election?

Oh how I hate to bring in race. But those who said "this had nothing to do with race".....are you fucking shitting me? It had EVERYTHING to do with race and gender. Hell! Hilary got attacked during her campaign because her HUSBAND cheated on HER! And she had to suffer the heat of it! Of course they wouldn't let a woman into the white house! How many times have I heard "the first black president" Oh gravy.....and it had nothing to do with race? You mean to tell me that there were not any black citizens who just voted for Obama because oh his race? Really? I don't believe that.

And why is that the conservative side always gets more heat than the liberals? For heavens sake, during the inauguration ceremony, George Bush was booed by some. What the hell is that? We're looking to a brighter, positive future of change, and you're booing a man who's no longer in power. Those are the fools who clearly took nothing from this election.

Was George Bush a shitty president. Maybe. It's not my call to make. Just like it's not my call to say whether or not Obama will make a good president. But I'll say this, I think Bush really did care about the country. Maybe his caring was bias and selfishly focused, but at the end of the day, he is a man with two daughters. He's just a man, like Obama is just a man.

Take what you will of this, and I really do hope Obama can bring forward so bright changes and lead us out of this dark recession.